notions.......

now i can realize how the world can be to me
a drift in my life came and i am there to face it
some serious things to be mending, some serious things to be bend
coz i am going through the biggest struggle in my life
to know what i am for, to know what this world is for
a twist in my helical vocal chord is what you can feel
a numbness in my eyes, will tell the story they reveal
they tell to stop bothering someone emotions
they tell me to quit these ongoing motions
i failed to understand how to quit, when i haven’t started
they tell me to close my eyes and stop dreaming
i failed to understand how to stop dream, when i haven’t tarred
huh…..seriously it seems that life has always taken a u turn for me
in the end, a warrior in me always tries to fight against all this
a dove inside in my heart, and from the outer, i feel as if i am getting pissed
the only drug in me, is my music, the only dope is my hidden geek
that always trying to keep me right, that always trying to keep me tight
i am speechless and i need that space for my head, alms for my bread
i may be dead in my nerves; i am alive only in my veins,
i may be maniac in my genes, but i love the way, the way i am insane
why should i cry for someone, when i have been a man of my own play?
why should i worry for someone, when i know the reality of humanoid clay?
you call me a slayer to myself; call me a player of understanding this worldly hell
i am a fellah in my own life, i will stand again even if the world stab me thousand time
coz they don’t know that i am blessed in my own way………………
To my lord, this is true, no matter whatever hassles come
i can leave everyone, but not you
this is i mean, that i don’t feel shame to express it
this is what i feel; i don’t feel bad to express this need
you are my soul, you are my life
you are the own, you know my every lie
whatever i do, it is not unknown to you
but even you are a player in your time, you test ya child in every niche and dime
but hey……lord i can understand coz i am experienced in it
you be with me and i am there to handle every kind of shit……………….
IN THE NAME OF HIM
BONJOE

THE PERFECT I

Am I the perfect I
or Am I the perfect one
Am I the perfect star
or Am I the shining sun
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It seems so confused to use this word that illudes
In a vague way, coz in the end it is difficult to conclude
When we say that we the perfectionist, a question quite debatable by the so called oppurtunist
I doubt whats wrong with this world, that to grab an oppurtunity everything needs to be perfect
You do any thing, you work any way, you go any time,you need to slay yourself showing your intellect
i doubt whats wrong with this world, people are at a loss to draw a line
to distinguish desire and dream at its high, coz it seems so lie when we think both the same
dreams leads a man to think for his fulfillment, desires makes a life bane
coz it nuthing but simply thoughts of a disillusioned mind
gizmos would neva bring two guys at par, its the mind that in the end shine
and thats the messae one, am the perfect I
or its just a realization through my inner eye
and thats the message one, am the perfect I
or its just an end of my happless cry......
am I the perfect I..........

Am I the perfect I
or Am I the perfect one
Am I the perfect star
or Am I the shining sun
----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
It seems so confused to use this word that illudes
In a vague way, coz in the end it is difficult to conclude
When we say that we the perfectionist, a question quite debatable by the so called oppurtunist
I doubt whats wrong with this world, that to grab an oppurtunity everything needs to be perfect
You do any thing, you work any way, you go any time,you need to slay yourself showing your intellect
i doubt whats wrong with this world, people are at a loss to draw a line
to distinguish desire and dream at its high, coz it seems so lie when we think both the same
dreams leads a man to think for his fulfillment, desires makes a life bane
coz it nuthing but simply thoughts of a disillusioned mind
gizmos would neva bring two guys at par, its the mind that in the end shine
and thats the messae one, am the perfect I
or its just a realization through my inner eye
and thats the message one, am the perfect I
or its just an end of my happless cry......
am I the perfect I..........

In the name of HIM
BONJOE

I STILL NEED YOU.............

The time is rising in its swing, a new way of light blessing my soul
I am again crawling back to my basics; I aim to be complete and whole
The time is rising in its swing; a new way to shine is I can see in the sky
I am again looking back my past, I am trying to revive my life
From a new corner, completely unknown to me
From a new eye, a different way to see
In my need, in my thoughts as I can still feel you
In my life, in my cries as I still need you

I still need at the time when the world turns against me
I still need at the time when it seems I am helpless to be free
Against the shackles and pains of my life which I still want to curb
Against the wrong notions they believe, which every time makes my mind disturb
I still need you, I still need you

The time is looking for a change in me, and it seems I can’t afford to do that
I am crawling to see my image, seeing the degraded notions in me, making me sad
Half clad, half filled, empty minds, wishes unfulfilled
I am again looking back my past, I am trying to portray myself chill
From a new corner, completely unknown to me
From a new eye, a different way to see
In my need, in my thoughts as I can still feel you
In my life, in my cries as I still need you


I still need at the time when the world turns against me
I still need at the time when it seems I am helpless to be free
Against the shackles and pains of my life which I still want to curb
Against the wrong notions they believe, which every time makes my mind disturb
I still need you, I still need you