notions.......

now i can realize how the world can be to me
a drift in my life came and i am there to face it
some serious things to be mending, some serious things to be bend
coz i am going through the biggest struggle in my life
to know what i am for, to know what this world is for
a twist in my helical vocal chord is what you can feel
a numbness in my eyes, will tell the story they reveal
they tell to stop bothering someone emotions
they tell me to quit these ongoing motions
i failed to understand how to quit, when i haven’t started
they tell me to close my eyes and stop dreaming
i failed to understand how to stop dream, when i haven’t tarred
huh…..seriously it seems that life has always taken a u turn for me
in the end, a warrior in me always tries to fight against all this
a dove inside in my heart, and from the outer, i feel as if i am getting pissed
the only drug in me, is my music, the only dope is my hidden geek
that always trying to keep me right, that always trying to keep me tight
i am speechless and i need that space for my head, alms for my bread
i may be dead in my nerves; i am alive only in my veins,
i may be maniac in my genes, but i love the way, the way i am insane
why should i cry for someone, when i have been a man of my own play?
why should i worry for someone, when i know the reality of humanoid clay?
you call me a slayer to myself; call me a player of understanding this worldly hell
i am a fellah in my own life, i will stand again even if the world stab me thousand time
coz they don’t know that i am blessed in my own way………………
To my lord, this is true, no matter whatever hassles come
i can leave everyone, but not you
this is i mean, that i don’t feel shame to express it
this is what i feel; i don’t feel bad to express this need
you are my soul, you are my life
you are the own, you know my every lie
whatever i do, it is not unknown to you
but even you are a player in your time, you test ya child in every niche and dime
but hey……lord i can understand coz i am experienced in it
you be with me and i am there to handle every kind of shit……………….
IN THE NAME OF HIM
BONJOE